Redeeming Ourselves From the Chains of Time

We all have very little time.

Yesterday we were in school, today we are working, earning money, having and maintaining a family. Tomorrow we will be old, we will retire from work and one day – die. We definitely have very little time. If you look back it will be as if it was only yesterday that we were in school. The time fled like frightened birds.

The question is why time is so short? What makes time short? Why do we have so little time? Why do we always say to others that we have little time and we have to hurry up?  You must have noticed, we are always in a hurry. When we are walking, eating, driving, working, we are always in a hurry.

We have 70-80 years of life and we have a million goals, millions of things to achieve, all small and big in these 70-80 years of life. So the time required for each goal is hardly anything. And our goals increase everyday. If you divide the time of 70-80 years of life with the number of goals that we have we have an average time to achieve every goal – less than a minute and we invariably have to hurry, whether we achieve the goals or not. In the pursuit of our millions of goals we go mad. The goals are big, each and every goal is very bid indeed. They are gigantic. To achieve them takes time, definitely not less than a minute. So, this makes time so short. This makes us run around like fanatics. We do not have time to breath, to relax and have fun. It is most of the time a do or die situation.

Time comes into the picture because there is a limit – the fact that we will die one day, which is not very far puts a limit and brings time into the picture. For us everything has to be done in time, otherwise we will miss it, we will be late and death is approaching. So we run, we fight, we kill, only to achieve our goals.

This is not only with you, it is with all the people in the planet. Starting from the beggar in the street to the highest of emperors – everybody is running after their goals. The goals may differ in magnitude – but the struggle to achieve them is same, humans have limitations and the struggle and the strive to achieve is the same for all human beings. Humans cannot be strained beyond a certain limit. Even while striving, the maximum effort that we can put is the same for all, the maximum human effort is the same for all, the goal may be different – different in magnitude, different in what we want to achieve. But the strain we go through is same for all. And all of us have a time limit. The same limit. Death limits us. One day we all will die. This makes us all same, whether we are an emperor, or whether we are a beggar in the street, we are same.

The question is whether these goals are utmost necessary? Will we not live without these goals? What will happen to us if we do not have or run after goals? From where do these goals arise? Why do we chase our goals like mad people and would go any extent to achieve them? What will happen when we achieve these goals?

Let us see from where these goals come and are they utterly necessary:

You must understand that we are internally strained and there is a lump of energy inside us – we were born with it and this energy needs to be released; this is our objective.  We know that a baby cries the moment he or she is born – this proves the fact that we were born with some uneasiness. From where this uneasiness has come. A new born baby need not be strained at all – mentally or physically. But the baby cries the moment he or she is born. There must be some uneasiness. We have been taught not to cry, we have been taught that only cowards cry so now we have stopped crying, but no one has taught this new born baby not to cry but still the baby cries.Crying is the only way to express this uneasiness for the baby. This itself proves that there was previous birth. It proves that the baby carried this uneasiness or excess energy from its previous life. This proves that there was life before birth and there will be life after death. The uneasiness that is there will be carried to your next life, if not mitigated in this life.

Our objective is to bring this stress or energy we were born with to a null. But we don’t know how to, so we blame the external conditions for this state of us. Since we are strained inside, we have an uneasiness inside and this uneasiness we call unhappiness. And because of this uneasiness we are constantly looking for happiness – all around we are looking for happiness. If we were not unhappy, why would we look for happiness, it is very simple. Whoever we see happy, we tend to follow them. We see a rich man, we see a apparently happy couple, we see someone driving a good car, we see someone doing good business, we ASSUME that they are happy and we make what they have today into our goal tomorrow ASSUMING THAT WE WILL BE HAPPY WHEN WE HAVE WHAT THEY HAVE TODAY. We are so much into our search for happiness that we fail to see that they are also strained inside and no matter what they have today will not make them stop.They were also born with the same unhappiness. This is how we decide our goals. Our search for happiness, because we are strained inside, leads us to look for happiness outside and imitate what we see, hoping that we will be happy tomorrow, if we follow others. Our goal is nothing but imitation of others. We are so ignorant that we do not know that they are also under the same strain inside, they are not free either and are looking for happiness around.

You must have seen that we are making or chasing goals at all points of our lives .This is because we are not happy with with what we are doing or having now. There is still to achieve because we are not yet satisfied. But the truth is that we will not be satisfied unless the uneasiness is completely done away with. If we look back, it is not that we have not achieved anything – we have – but are not satisfied yet. We have till date achieved a lot, but it is not enough. We want to have more. We are not satisfied, there is an uneasiness always present within always and all the time. If the uneasiness would not have been there, we would not have had goals at all. Then we would not have been looking for happiness. But it is not the case. No matter how much we achieve, there is need for more. We just do not want to stop, ever. These goals are our driving force. This uneasiness inside makes the world around. Without these, what would we do. But it is also a fact that no matter how much we achieve, there is need for even more. After achieving one goal, the uneasiness goes for some time, but soon the uneasiness comes again and again we start running. And at the same time, time is running out. This strains us more. Very little time and so much to achieve.

Lets say, suddenly you have achieved all your goals that you have had till date – what after that? Will we stop or we will again start running? Will ever a day come when we will have nothing to achieve?

It is a fact that we will die one day, but what is there for the rush? Why are we rushing, fighting and straining ourselves so much? What will happen if we know that we will die tomorrow? Where will the goals be at that time? We will invariable give them up? It would be foolishness to try and achieve those goals in a day’s time and at the same time impossible. One day before our death, we will still remain who we are. The rush and the fight will be foolishness.

We assume that we will live till 70 or 80, but it is just and assumption. The 70-80 years of life is an assumption based on observation, and this gives us some time to pursue our goals and make all achievements. But death can come anytime.

So all our goals are based on assumption that we still have time to be happy – but very little time. We may die the next moment. Since our goals are based on assumption, the time we would take to achieve the goal is also assumption – But the question is still not answered.The question is why a goal at all? – whether we have time or no time at all – why is there a question of a goal?

This, like I said before, is because we are uneasy inside and in the process to do away with the uneasiness, we create goals by looking at others, which creates further uneasiness. We are constantly falling into a trap.

When things go wrong in our lives, we are sad not because of the event, we are tense because we don’t know when will it get over and we will be back to normal again. The question is again of time. We are tensed because we are running out of time. For us normal means chasing goals and aiming a good life. For us even normal is also not without time. Time is always a factor.

To have goals we need time – because whenever we have a goal, we will have to achieve them and will consume time. So Time is required for goals.

We will not have goals under two conditions 1) If we have infinite time 2) If we have no time at all.

If we have infinite time, even if we have goals, we will not hurry – we would stop. Everything would stop. All the hurry and running in our lives will immediately stop. We have experienced that whenever a deadline is postponed, we immediately relax. We slow down. We then do whatever we want to do, we play around, watch a movie, go for a holiday – If the deadline is extended till infinity – you would stop working because the goal will no longer exist. The presence of limited time brings the goal into the picture.

So infinite time gives to complete FREEDOM. Time makes you a prisoner. So, if the time we have is increased till infinity – we would completely relax and would be completely free. Or if we make ourselves completely free – it would mean we have infinite time – we would become deathless.

If we have no time at all – then there would be no goal – even if there is goal, there is not time to achieve it – so having a goal becomes meaningless.
If you live in this moment, you have infinite time and if we have infinite time – we come back to this moment, we start living in this moment. Actually, both having no time at all, and having infinite time are one and the same, because in both cases, a goal or a target to achieve is meaningless.The way to infinite time is having no goal at all.

Only a BUDDHA lives in infinite time or no time at all. Both these situations are same. A Buddha is immortal.

We mortals live in between. We live in time. Neither do we live in this moment nor in infinite time. This makes us mortals. Living in time brings us immense misery.

I agree that we will live for 80 years. But what is the need of having a goal? All our goals are for happiness. We think that if we achieve our goals, we will be happy, but we have witnessed that we are never contented – there is always an uneasiness inside. One goal after the other, this and that, this place or that, but we are never contented. We always feel that we need more time but there is always lack of time. We need to be free to do what we want. What is the need to do what we like? We think that doing what we like to do, will make us happy. But this never happens, there is no end to it.
The question always is to be happy – but unfortunately whatever we do, wherever we go, we are never happy – we are continuously, without fail, night and day, in pursuit of happiness – why this pursuit does not end? We are constantly in pursuit of happiness because we are continuously unhappiness inside. This is because of the constant uneasiness inside. And we were born with this uneasiness. This has to be understood.

We see that all of us are pursuing happiness. There is a great need for all of us to be happy.

Happiness is the goal of us mortals because we have little time. This little time leads us to setting goals and increase our internal strain that we were born with; and in that short time he or she has to be happy. The Day you stop pursuing happiness, you become immortal, because then you are not bound by time.

Actually the problem is not with the outside, the problem is the strain inside of all of us. The constant uneasiness is our problem. And we keep blaming the outside, whoever or whatever it may be, for our problems. We blame the outside because we do not know from where this uneasiness comes. We are ignorant. It has to come from somewhere. So we blame others for this uneasiness. The outside cannot solve our problems no matter what we do. No matter how much success we achieve or no matter how much we gain, this uneasiness is to remain unless it is understood and mitigated. This is independent of our achievements or failures in this world.

This is with all of us starting from the greatest of Kings to the beggar on the street. The need to be happy all the time, no matter how much we achieve success the strain and uneasiness remains and we never stop our pursuit for happiness no matter how much success we achieve – suggests that there is tension or uneasiness constantly present inside us and this tension we have inside has nothing to do with the success or failure we come across in our lives.

This tension or uneasiness has nothing to do with success or failure in the material world. This has nothing to do with what work we do – it does not matter what we achieve or not achieve, it is not dependent on whether we aim big or we aim small. This strain will go away when we go beyond the chains of time. when we become infinity, the day we realize that we have no death. This will go the day we become a BUDDHA.

This is nothing personal with the uneasiness inside – you were born with it. Every baby is born with it. Otherwise you would not have cried the moment you were born. And the mother and the father of the child starts covering the uneasiness to stop the child cry. They give the baby every comfort, every toy as per their capacity to stop the baby cry – they cannot help it because they are connected with the baby with so much love. The child grows up and becomes a man, then he starts covering his own uneasiness with things – sometimes he wants money, sometimes a car and sometimes a girlfriend or boyfriend.

This uneasiness is the driving force – due to this uneasiness we work to cover up our inner turmoil – we work to keep ourselves engaged all day, we work to earn money so that we can give ourselves the toys we love and cover up the uneasiness.But the uneasiness does not go. We keep buying toys for ourselves but the uneasiness or energy does not get mitigated.
We mistakenly think that this uneasiness will go if achieve success in the material world. We think that when we achieve this or that, this uneasiness will go, but the happiness that will come with the this success will be just a very small cover for the ever existing uneasiness inside. THIS UNEASINESS IS INDEPENDENT OF THE SUCCESS OR FAILURE IN THIS MATERIAL WORLD. But we add fuel to this uneasiness. We strain ourselves. We are strained already, but we,instead of relieving ourselves, strain ourselves more and more.

We fall in a trap. We know that our time is limited. It is true as long as we not realize that we are timeless. The strain that we carry with ourselves from our birth till date is there and we add further strain to it. Since there is a strain, we are always uneasy inside and in order to do away with this strain. We do not understand that the strain is not ours, it is carried from our previous birth and with this strain we are always sad, depressed and uneasy. In order to mitigate this uneasiness, we create goals and think that we would be happy when we achieve our goals. And our goals have to be time bound, because we have little time.This strains us even more and adds to the strain. When we fail to achieve our goals, we add to the strain further because we have lost precious time. The point is not about failing to achieving the goal, the strain is about loosing time and having lesser and lesser time. Our all fears are about loosing time, that is why we do not try anything that is time consuming – because we fear that all the time will be gone and there will be no time to be happy. And whenever we try we put a time limit – it has to be because we mortals are not infinite yet. If we would have had infinite time, the failure would not have made any difference to us. This loosing of time leaves us with more strain because everyday, as time passes, we are left with lesser and lesser time and more and more strain. strain because the goals and the achievements remain the same only time decreases. The number of goals and targets always increase in number and the time decreases leading to more strain.

So the existing strain that we have been carrying from our previous birth, makes us set more goals towards happiness and this leads to further strain. So our goals add fuel to fire.

We have to understand that we have not yet realized our ultimate potential – that is to be a BUDDHA. This will happen the day we have completely done away with the strain inside that we are carrying. Though we have the potential to be a Buddha. Every human being has this potential in him or her. On that day, the strain that we have been carrying for centuries will be completely done away with, and simultaneously all goals will be done away with. We would become timeless and deathless. We would become a Buddha. But this has to happen in its own accord. Whenever the time comes it will happen, but we have to prepare the ground for it to happen. It will happen when the ground is ready. But we misunderstand and think that to mitigate this ever existing stress inside, we need to be happy and set goals for ourselves. We set more and more goals and strain ourselves further with decreasing time.

What we need to do:

1. Stop Pursuing Happiness – Pursue something tough, something you have never done before – something out of the world – Delete the word happiness from your dictionary – Because happiness is not your goal – Understand your goal.

2. Understand that our ultimate goal is to do away with this ever existing internal stress completely and be a Buddha, this is our ultimate goal, no matter how many goals we have on the way.

3. Understand that we are still not a Buddha,still not timeless and infinite but at the same time we have the potential to be a Buddha. Every human being has.

4. We are still mortals, we have to live in this world with others. So instead of having millions of goals and trying to mitigate the stress by having more and more goals, have ONLY ONE goal in this life. And slowly do away with all other goals. Whatever ONE goal you have, make it timeless by keeping the deadline at INFINITY. Lesser the goals, more the time. Remember that the day we have no goal, we become immortals. We become free. The Goal is in INFINITY because, to completely rule out the possibility of being happy after achievement of the goal. And we have one goal, so no question of any happiness.

5. We have to be brave, because in the process towards to out goal placed at infinity, lot of people will come an go, lot of connections will break, there will be a lot of pain and misery, but you should not get distracted. This will lead to non-attachment (This is the message of the Bhagwad Gita).

6. Always remember that whatever stress is there in the form of emotions, we have inside, has nothing to do with what happens outside and whatever action we do, will not mitigate the stress. But we should not add more energy to it.

7. Understand that the all our problems are because of the stress inside, which we have been carrying from our previous birth – not to involve the external situation for our emotions.

8. Be impersonal to the stress in the form of emotions that we have inside.

This way we prepare the ground. And then one day when the time is perfect, the stress and uneasiness inside will completely vanish leaving you TIMELESS and INFINITE. You will be a BUDDHA.

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The Walking Experiment – To Know the Inner Voice

If we watch ourselves carefully, we will know that we are always in a hurry. Whatever we are doing, walking, eating, driving, working, we are always in a hurry to finish. But we do not know the reason for our hurried-ness  We do not know what will we do after we finish what we are doing now. But we are always in the hurry to finish.

This hurried-ness comes is unconsciousness. We don’t know but we hurry. If you read my post “Why we hate? – The exercise”, you will know that we are not one, but we are divided into so many identities. Some of then we are already and the other identities, we want to be. But this whole thing is imaginary. All the “I”s are imaginary.

We are in a hurry because, we fear that if we are late, we might cease to be what we think we are, we may no longer be the “I” we think we are. These “I”s make us who we are, otherwise who we would be. But the strangest part is that, all these “I”s are imaginary and we keep chasing and protecting these “I”s all our lives. It is just like you imagine someone has thrown a ball high up, an imaginary ball, thrown high up by an imaginary person, and you run to catch the imaginary ball in reality. This is madness.

All those things that are in your mind are imaginary, they cannot be real, but take them to be real, they make us who we are, how can we let them go? The only reality is here and now.

In your mind, automatically you are put in a situation, good or bad, whatever, and then another “I” emerges rationalizes the situation. If it is a bad situation, the “I” says “don’t worry everything will be fine” and if it is a good situation, you rejoice in your imagination. But the unfortunate part is that everything is imaginary, except what you are doing here and now.

In your mind, several “I”s emerge and they keep talking with each other and the “Real” you does something else. But we are not able to do something else, we get involved in the argument or discussion between the “i”s in our mind. By “We” I mean another “I”, forms and takes part in the mental discussion. Two “I”s are discussing and we take the form of another “I” and join the discussion in our mind, all imaginary. “I” after “I” forms and we are lost in the discussion.

The moment we take part in the discussion, we are lost from the real world. If we are walking our walk takes the rhythm of the discussion that is going on. If we are driving, our driving takes the rhythm of the inner talk. This happens because we remain unaware of the inner talk. The moment you are aware of the inner talks, the inner talk stops.

Most of us are unaware of this inner talk. I have devised an exercise that would let you know your inner talk. It is as follows:

Most of the time, when we are walking with someone, we see that the speed of our walk increases and becomes very fast. We are continuously talking and our walking gets faster and faster and reaches a point where our legs start to ache. Then we slow down. Till the time, our legs did not ache, we did not realize that we are walking so fast. But we did not start with an intention or objective to walk fast. But it happened. This happened because, our walk took the rhythm of our talk.

The same happens when you are walking alone. We start slow but then the speed increases when we have walked for some time. We think we are alone but we are not. What will happen to all these “I”s. We are actually many, may be hundreds, all alive and kicking! They are talking discussing their survival strategies. And every moment another “I” emerge and take part in the discussion, all imaginary, but we think that it is us.

The walking exercise:

  1. Start walking alone on a road or a park, a place which is not so crowded

  2. With time your speed will increase but you will not know about it.So I suggest you put an alarm so that it reminds you in 10 minutes time after you have started.

  3. The moment the alarm rings – stop for 5 minutes – you may sit, if you find a place to sit nearby

  4. Just watch your mind – The thoughts and you walk were “synergizing” each other. They were moving at a same speed, the thoughts in your mind, and your walk. The thoughts had also taken up a momentum. The moment you stop walking and sit. The thoughts, having a momentum, will continue in the same speed for some time. This is the time, when you will come to know your inner chatter very clearly.

  5. Start walking very slowly after 5 minutes of sitting. – I mean very slowly – you will notice that the chatter will be minimum when you walk very slowly. Keep walking for 10 minutes very slowly. In these ten minutes, if you are aware, you will slowly feel that, as time is passing after you have started walking slowly, the intensity of the inner chatter is increasing very slowly.

These 5 steps will very clearly let you know you inner chatter. It will let you know what you are thinking all the time. You are discussing all the time in your mind. In step 4, when you watch your mind, things will be very clear. If you continue with this exercise for 5 days, you will know all your major inner arguments, because our arguments are all repetitive.

Once you know your inner chatter, you will realize that you are not actually who you think you are. You will come to know that you are most of the time an imaginary identity in your mind, discussing with all other identities.

Then your actions will change, because, you will earlier only aware of the inner chatter and took it for reality. Now you will have options, whether to act as per the requirement of this moment or go as per the inner imaginary chatter in your mind.

These imaginary identities are kept alive only by thinking. The more you are unconscious, lost in your mind, the more they are prominent and alive. The more you throw the light of your awareness on them, they vanish.  This is the reason why humans are always thinking, they need time to think, they need time for relaxation, so that they can always think, unconsciously, and keep them alive.

Knowing your inner imaginary chatter, and understanding that it is all imaginary and acting as per the requirement of the moment will completely change your life for the better.

In Search of the “My”

This is a continuation of my post “Are you really the person in the mirror?” 

I was puzzled yesterday when I realized that the body was not mine. It functions automatically without my interference. I realized that it is just like an intelligent Instrument given to “me” by existence by Creation, because the functioning of the body is a part of creation or existence. Creation created it as was gifted to me when I was born and I will carry it with me till my death. After that it will be returned to existence – Since I am a Hindu, the body will be cremated and all will be converted to ashes and will go into the earth. It will return to the source. It was given to “me” and then after some time, it will be taken back. It has to return to the source. This proves that the body which I call mine is NOT MINE. But I foolishly keep calling it “MY BODY”. It is never good to call, something that belongs to the other, as “MINE”. The body is a gift on returnable basis. It belongs to someone else and it will be taken back. You do not know when it will be taken back. 

The Next question is who is body given to? To whom is the body given to on a returnable basis? Who will have the body for may be 70-80 years? Who mistakenly calls the body is “His” or “hers”. 

A baby in the womb starts growing from a cell. Initially it is just a cell. It keeps growing and growing on it own. It takes shape. Hands, feet, body, heart, brain, veins, bones form on its own, inside the womb. What is making it, what is giving it a shape? What intelligence is supervising it when the baby in the womb is under development – all these things are beyond the control of Humans and they still happen. 

The baby in the womb is doing nothing for the development of his body and other parts. I am sure we all understand this. Then who is doing it? The baby is not, the mother is not,the father is not. But the mother calls the baby as “My Baby”. She did not create the child, she did not create the body of the child, she did not take part is the development of the body of the child while it was in the womb. She only provided the womb. The womb was also not created by the mother. No one in the world can create a womb. The womb definitely does not belong to the mother. 

So, the baby did not create his or her own body while he was in the womb, it did not give the body a particular shape, did not create the heart, the brain, the lungs, the liver, the veins – The baby does not help the body grow with time after he is she is born, does not make the heart beat or the blood flow – but the baby, when he or she grows up, owns the body. He or she calls the body as his or her. 

This is a mistake. Why do you think we are making a mistake? Why do we call it mine? This mistake has to be very clearly understood. This will clear all our hurdles and make us free of sorrow and suffering. 

When A child is born, it is pure. It is just like a flower. It is like a fresh leaf, bright green. It is just like dew drops on the leaf early in the morning. They are very close to God. 

A one month born child is also capable to look around. He is able to move his hands and legs. He cries and makes some noise.He does not have any knowledge, he does not know how to act, what to say, whether to keep quite or not. He does not have any objective like we have. His actions are pure. So a child does not mentally suffer like we do. A child does not have problems like we have. He is pure consciousness. 

What can be so pure? What is there is a flower that is not in a grown up human being? It is consciousness.Consciousness is God. It is the Purest. 

Consciousness is pure space. It is a “no-thing”. Consciousness does not have a sense of “I” or “My”. Therefore the child, is Pure consciousness. Consciousness is the space where the supreme Intelligence works. Consciousness is the space where the supreme Intelligence or Creation or Existence Manifests. Whatever happens, all forms, they all happen in the consciousness. 

Consciousness is polluted when the mind starts forming. It is the only place where information that is taken in through the senses, gather and form our memory. The mind becomes a part of Consciousness, but we are only aware of the mind and not consciousness. 

The child, when he is born is a “no-thing”. It is a part of the whole. It is just like a flower. It does not know that he or she has a body. The body is Just there like anything else – he or she is pure consciousness. 

Since the child is pure consciousness and pure consciousness is a “no-thing”, in order to be something, the child develops an “I”. The child starts to develop various Identities with time. This happens automatically as the consciousness gets filled up with information form outside, through the senses. 

Please read my post – “Ego – The Greatest Obstacle to Creativity and Innovation” you will understand it completely.  

These Identities that from in the consciousness of the child, are all imaginary. The knowledge that he has gained, forms his mind. The moment the mind forms, the person is split. He is split between the mind and the consciousness. The consciousness is manifesting, it is continuously creating, it has its own will, which we call the will of God – but the knowledge, the logic the mind of the person thinks otherwise. The mind generally goes against the will of God or the supreme intelligence, which leads to enormous amount of mental tension.  

All these Identities form the mind of the person. The Identities gives the person a sense of “I”, but it is all imagination. And all our lives, we keep strengthening our “I”s. All our actions are directed towards strengthening our “I”s. We do not allow the consciousness to work, because it is all filled up with knowledge, and we try to solve all our problems with logic and knowledge and fail to understand that there is also a world that is beyond logic.  

Because the “I” forms, in order to strengthen that “I”, we try to possess everything and label it as “My”. The same logic is applicable to understand why in spite of several proofs, that the body is not in our control, we still call it “our” body, otherwise, what will we be? So, first thing that we own in this world is our “Body” and this owning is nothing more than an Imagination in order to strengthen the “I”. 

In reality there is no “I”. It is of the Ego. The ego is an Imaginary identity created with knowledge, otherwise who will we be? We are pure consciousness. We are pure space.  

This “I” creates all the problems. This “I” makes our life hell. It splits us into two. We are never at peace. The moment you do away with this “I”, you become pure consciousness, your life becomes utterly creative, you align yourself with the supreme intelligence or creation or Existence.  

The  only goal of humanity should be do away with the Imaginary “I” and create space for creation or existence to act through you.

Two Reasons why People Hate me

I have understood, after a really long time why people hate me. Since childhood, I have had very little friends, though I have not been a kind of an introvert. I wanted to mingle with people, go out with them, but I  was not able to, since others did not like me much. When in college, It was a fact that I never had a best friend. The guy who I thought was my best friend, was someone else’s best friend and I was last in the list. While at work, people tired to avoid me. I was depressed all my life, until this day, when I realized the truth. 

There are two reasons (basically one) but I have made it two for better understanding. 

1. I open myself up very quickly

The nature of the human mind is to seek. It needs to know everything. Because the minds thinks that not knowing might bring danger. The mind keeps thinking, what kind of danger it might bring. So the mind needs to know. Whenever anything comes in its hands, it dissects it, operates on it, goes to the microscopic and submicroscopic level and tried to find our everything.

 

You must have noticed, that two people, not known to each other, when travelling together in a train or a bus, always tend to talk. The exchange names and ask each other what he or she does. It is the mind, who needs to know, because it is scared that God knows what might come up. Even if they do not talk, they keep talking within themselves about the person. The keep guessing, looking at the person’s behavior and belonging’s who might it be? And the inner chatter and guessing continues till the time they are sitting next to each other. 

And when it knows, when it has nothing to find, it throws it away. It becomes useless. The attraction was only due to the lack of knowledge about that particular person or thing. All pursuits are only to know. And because of an inherent fear. Fear makes us seek and there is no end to it. This fear never ends. If there is no fear, there will be no seeking. The fear is usually deep inside us and we generally do not know about it.  

The fear is the cause of all pursuits, whether it is an object, money or people. When the knowledge is  apparently complete, the fear is gone and the seeking is over. This is the nature of human beings.

In my case I open myself up very quickly. In the first meeting with someone, they know everything about me. They know everything, like, what I do, whether I am married or single, where I work, what are my interests, what I read, what are my hobbies and everything. I become an open book.  I don’t know why but I tell them  everything. I tend to. They come to know that I am harmless. I am peaceful. They come to know that in no way I can be of any danger to him or her. Rather the also come to know, what they can get from me. Whatever they need they take and throw me away. 

The reason is when I open myself up, their mind stops seeking. They do no longer chase me or want me. They know everything about me. Now, they do no longer want me. When I go to them, I feel ignored because I am of no use to them, and neither I pose any danger, neither I am mysterious. 

I am ignored. I feel it is my fault because I revel everything in the first few meetings itself. 

2. I reveal my own fears, problems and tensions  

We have to understand that we are all humans. We have the same fears, same tensions and same problems. Because the origin of fear is the same for all of us. We will talk about the origin of fears in another post. 

The fears are there, there are somewhere deep inside you mind. They pop out from time to time and cause you enormous tension. You hide it immediately with some cover. But the fear never goes. It remains and keeps bothering you from time to time. 

We are always in the look out for a cover. We want to hide it under a blanket.

 As I have told that all our seeking is for knowledge, we see whether the other will be of any use to us or is completely useless. The seeking is only to know whether the other will be of any use to us. What can be a possible use of another person? It may seem many things, but the most basic thing is whether the other person will be able to cover my fears. The fears are dangerous. If they pop out and possess us, it may cause enormous trouble. So we constantly look out for people who will be able to cover up my fears. 

We never talk about our fears. We suppress our fears because we have been taught to suppress our fears since the time we were children and we have been suppressing our fears since that time. We want them to be hidden and want to carry them to our grave.  

Everyone has fears. If anyone comes and tells me that he does not have fear, I would not believe. It has to be someone like the Buddha to say so. All others, I mean those who are not enlightened, have fears and we are continuously protecting ourselves. We are always trying to make our fears hide under the blanket. All seeking, all questions and all arguments (internal and external) are to protect ourselves.

When I reveal my fears, when I reveal my tensions, anxieties to others. I immediately become useless for them. They are looking for someone, who will be able to save them for their own fears, which they have been hiding. They are looking for someone fearless, which is very very difficult to find in this planet. They thought, when they met me, that may be I ll be able to save them, but I come out to be someone who is himself afraid like them.

I become a mirror and reflect their real faces, which they hate to see. They want to hide under a mask of bravery, but internally they have only fears, which makes them seek all life and they die one day with the fears. They fail to understand that I am also a human and not enlightened like a Buddha.  I have the same fears that they have. We all have same fears, because we all have the same egos, we have the same identities, which we keep protecting. 

The only difference is – I reveal and they don’t. By revealing I become a weak guy and others by hiding, become strong and brave. According to me, being brave is just a false show. It is not true. It is suggestive of another fear. Whatever we do, whether we hide or reveal, the fear is there and will be there if not completely uprooted from our being. Simply hiding our fears will not make us brave.

When I reveal my fears, I act as a mirror. I remind them of their fears because the fears I have are the same as theirs. When I talk about my fears, they see themselves in me. They see themselves as a scared person. But I cannot help. I cannot pretend. I have to reveal whatever is going on inside. I do not know whether it is my weakness or bravery.

They throw me out. 

 

When You Would Stop Hurting The Other

We generally do something or do not do something depending on what trigger we receive from inside. Some kind of bad feelings tell us that we should not do and good feelings tell us to do that particular activity. I am not talking about what the mind is telling us, or what the inner talk is, I am taking only of the feeling.

The mind orders and the heart suffers. Always remember this statement. All feelings are connected with the heart. The mind is simply a computer program. 

Normally we tend to hurt others – this is normal human nature. This is bad. But this does not change overnight. 

If you create space, or have access to the supreme intelligence, you will one day stop hurting others.

We would stop hurting the other the day we feel tremendously hurt, may be a million time more, after hurting the other to the slightest extent, you know you are in the right path. Generally we feel happy after hurting the other or yelling at the other, but the day the reverse would happen, which happens very rarely, we should know that spaces have started growing inside and we are connecting with the supreme intelligence.

You may feel hurt or you may feel fear or remorse or sad or anything after even talking loudly with the other. There will be again an object forming inside, an uneasiness, a block will be felt. This feeling of sadness or fear, will be there to give you a signal or to intimate you not to do that again in future. And the best part is you will never do it again, just to maintain your sanity, peace of mind. This action of hurting the other will put you in so much distress, you would say, “even of the other hurts me I will not hurt the other”. When this happens know that you are in the right path.

This will be there because, already the spaces have expanded inside. A normal, very small intensity feeling of resistance will trigger various other feelings of resistance, that were there  from the past. It will be just the filling up of spaces by other lingering emotions inside the body. This will be a signal that enormous amount of spaces have been created inside.

These are all signs, that shows that you are growing, you have started accessing the supreme intelligence. Remember, when spaces have started forming, you will automatically know what to do and what not to do. It is the existence speaking. It is the supreme Intelligence. You will just know. You will be guided.

Buddha on Belief

“Believe nothing, no matter where you read it, or who said it, no matter if I have said it, unless it agrees with your own reason and your own common sense.” – Gautama Buddha

Buddha says not to believe anything at all unless it agrees with your own reason and own common sense. But if you read my post “What is belief?” you will see that it is just the opposite of what Buddha Says. It will seem as if whatever I have written in all my posts is wrong and does not need any reading by anyone.

But if you read my post “What is belief?” very carefully you will see that I have written – space or consciousness cannot be understood but can be only known. But an object can be known, because it can be defined. The object has boundaries, it has an existence. When the object is removed, you will know space, because then space or consciousness is created. You will also know that object is nothing but the uneasiness or sickness inside your body and it happens whenever the current situation is unwanted. In your body you know where is it. It can be located. I have used the word “filling up” for the uneasiness inside in my post “what is belief?”. It happens when you do not like something that is happening now. This uneasiness gives rise to the inner dialogues. By talking internally you try to rationalize the situation and there is a continuous inner chatter. This inner chatter is a product of this block or object or uneasiness inside. You try to find a reason for the uneasiness and try to convince that whatever is happening is right for you. But the uneasiness does not go. Because you cannot find a reason and you are in trouble.

When the object is removed, space is created. Or when the uneasiness is removed from inside, space is created. You will only know space when the inner uneasiness is removed. When the inner sickness is removed.  When the uneasiness is removed, what remains is space. You create consciousness. You become connected to the supreme intelligence.

But first the object has to be created. The uneasiness and the sickness has to be created. Only then space can be know. Only then consciousness can be known. The object or uneasiness occupies some space. It has to, otherwise where will it be?

Buddha’s statement is to create this object or uneasiness inside you. When you know that the object is there, you will know that space is also there. You will know that when the uneasiness goes, space will be created. You will be creating consciousness. You will start to become a part of the whole, the supreme intelligence.

That is why the Buddha says to believe in nothing. He does this to create believe and when you believe, it becomes faith. Because when you do not believe, there will be uneasiness, there will be sickness, there will come an inner block, and this will give rise to a continuous inner chatter. He wants this to happen. He wants you to know the block. He wants to argue and argue continuously internally until one day you will be tired of arguing and will no longer argue. The inner uneasiness will vanish. And you will start to believe. Doubts will no longer be there and you will have faith. And this is what He wants.

He wants you to be free of all doubts and have faith. Have faith in the supreme intelligence. If he tells you directly to believe, you will not, if he tells you to have faith, you will not, if he tells you to love, you will not, if he tells you to have no doubts, you will have all the doubts. That is why he tells you to do just the opposite. This is because, the questions and arguments cannot be solved by arguments. The questions cannot be answered because the answer cannot be reached using knowledge, using our minds, using our own memory. That is why he says NOT to believe. He says not to believe just to raise doubts, to raise questions, to  raise uneasiness, because he knows that none of these can be solved or answered using logic.

And once the uneasiness, the heaviness is created, it is bound to go, today or tomorrow, making you aware of consciousness. Making you aware of something that is beyond “Objects”, beyond the mind.

My Quote – Human Mind

To know, is the job of humans, whatever comes in his hands. He wants to operate it, dissect it, cut it, go to the microscopic and sub-microscopic level…and understand..the mind seeks..it is not able to stay without knowing..you must have known by now that you always want to know what the outcome is going to be..what the result is going to be..you are inquisitive..you want to know the end before even you start…this is because you are not comfortable with not knowing…you want knowledge..But the world of mystery is the world of God…the world of consciousness.

Robots need knowledge, that is, the computer program, for even taking a single step. It would need a program even to learn. But this is not the case with humans.

Have we become robots? Are we not humans?

What is belief?

This is the most important post as far as knowing consciousness is concerned.

THEY SAY THAT BELIEF CAN MAKE THE IMPOSSIBLE, POSSIBLE. AND IT IS TRUE. LET US SEE HOW.

All my life I have been wondering what exactly is belief. There was a time when I used to go to a psychiatrist   for counselling. She always told me to believe. I never understood. I asked the same question to her again and again. It was never clear. My parents told me to believe in god. I never believed. I tried my level best to by I could not. I, being a Hindu, visited many temples. But could not believe. I thought, what good is going to happen if I pray? And this is all waste of time. Somehow I did not believe.
 
But do you think I did not believe anything? I did. I believed always in the bad. I was conditioned that way. 

Conditioning means “Filling-up”. “Filling up” is just a word, to make you understand, because consciousness cannot be understood, neither can it be defined. For defining you need boundaries, coordinates, but it has none. It is eternity. It has not end.

Space cannot be defined. Space can be known. To make you know, I have to first create an object, which can be defined and then remove it. Thus creating space in the place where the object was placed. Creation of space can be only known this way. This is why I have used the word “Filling-up”. Just to make you know “object” and when the object is removed, you know space.

Similarly internal spaces can be known, when there is some object inside you, somewhere some block, some internal occupant, some uneasiness. When this is dissolved, space will be created. Or when you can go beyond it, more space is available. These blocks are your thoughts, argument and emotions.

These internal arguments happen whenever there is a block. An external situation which we resist creates a blockage, to do away with this blockage we argue internally or may be sometimes we argue loudly also. This block can be felt in the form of an uneasiness inside our body.But this argument is again based on knowledge that we have gained till date. It is based on logic. It is old. It cannot solve a present problem.  So the internal argument with the present situation continues and continues till it subsides on its own. By the time this argument stops, other arguments have started. This is an unending process. 

The more unwanted the situation, greater the block, more thee uneasiness and louder the argument inside. In these times, in times of crisis, of deep crisis, when the uneasiness becomes very prominent and the argument becomes very loud that you can hear yourself talk, the “filled up” can be detected. Once you detect, you become aware of the “filled-up”, and at the same time you become aware of consciousness. You come to know that despite of the deep crisis, you can still move. You change.The block or the uneasiness comes first. Then comes the internal arguments to rationalize the situation, in order to do away with the uneasiness inside your body. But these internal arguments can never do away with the uneasiness, because all arguments are old and what has one up in this “present moment” is something new, something unknown, that is why it is unwanted.

The argument comes when you are not able to see the end you use all your knowledge and logic, but still cannot see the end. The uneasiness and the inner argument increases and can be detected.

All your arguments will fail  or will continue till your death and may be beyond that ,because you cannot solve some unknown problem with something that you know.

So to know space, you have to first know the blocks, the obstructions, the lack of space. The awareness of this blocks, which are your thoughts, arguments and emotions will lead to knowing of more spaces or creation of spaces inside. Only then space can be understood. Otherwise not.

For creation of the spaces, blocks are essential.

Consciousness can never be filled up. There cannot be a block as large as consciousness. Consciousness is unending.  It is vast, unending, unfathomable. There is always space available. It is lack of awareness of the blocks that leads to “Filling Up”. Then there is no space left for anything else to enter. Only awareness has to be increases, awareness of the blocks inside.

The job of the Master is not to show you space or to make you know consciousness. The master creates obstacles “Fills up” and when you know that you are filled up, you try to find a way out and this creates awareness and the you become aware of the unending, unfathomable spaces inside you.Whenever there is a crisis in your life, know that the supreme intelligence, the only master is trying to make you aware. Be alert, be aware and you will know. Existence is giving you an opportunity to know the vast unending and unfathomable spaces available to you.

I did not believe in the good may be because all my life, I did not have this insight, that there is consciousness, that goes much beyond the “Filled-up”. I did not believe until one day.

When you have no uneasiness or no internal argument, no matter what happens, you have started to believe. Then belief gets converted to faith.

Let us see what belief is.

If I tell you that tomorrow all your problems will be solved? Will you believe?

If I tell you that tomorrow morning, you will see an apple growing in a mango tree. Would you believe?
 
If you are a software engineer and I tell you that tomorrow you will be a Movie Star? Would you believe?

If I tell you will receive the Nobel Prize? Will you believe?

If I tell you that tomorrow you will earn $ 1 Million out of the blue? Will you believe?

If I tell you that if you try, you can fly? Will you believer?

If I tell you that if you jump from the Empire State Building and will survive? Will you believe?

If I tell you that you will live 200 years? Will you believe?

If someone asks you to believe the above statements at gunpoint, imagine the kind of uneasiness and internal arguments it will create. This is the uneasiness, I am talking about.

I can bet that you will not believe in any of the above. Have you ever thought why? What is stopping you from believing in all the above. 

It is the knowledge that you gained in the past, the knowledge that you have accumulated over the years, it is the knowledge that makes up your mind stops your from believing that all these things will happen.

If I tell you tomorrow all your problems will be solved. Your knowledge, in the form of the inner voice, will say there are so many problems, and each of them is so complicated, my girlfriend has left and I am so mentally depressed, I have lost my job and I don’t think that I will get a job tomorrow, I don’t have a good professional track record, I have very little money and so many things to do. How can all my problems be solved overnight. It will take years to solve all these problems.

Your whole argument against my statement “All your problems will be solved tomorrow” will be based on your accumulated knowledge. There is nothing else with you, with which you will argue, but your past knowledge. This  knowledge is your mind. All you will argue with is with your logic. All arguments are logical. We tend to find logical reasons to argue. With our accumulated knowledge, tend to give reasons why  something will happen or not happen. It is true, because we have nothing else. 

If I tell you that tomorrow you will receive $ 1 Million. You will invariably call me a mad man. You logic will tell you, your knowledge will tell you that this is absolutely not possible. You will say “this is the middle of the month, your little salary  is still 15 days away, getting a million dollars is out of question, it is impossible”. You straight away went to your salary, you did not think about anything else. Yes, because your argument is perfectly logical. And you do not believe. We always refer to our knowledge for Believing or Not believing. 

This is because we immediately want to arrive at a conclusion. We are not comfortable with not knowing. The day we are comfortable with not knowing, spaces or consciousness have been created. Know that you are in the right direction.

For every statement of mine you have a LOGICAL argument. You will invariably argue. Either the argument will be internal or you will argue loudly. But you will argue. You will raise many question. You will raise doubts about my statement. You will try to logically convince me that what I am saying is impossible.

Knowledge or mind based logical arguments, internal or external arguments is NOT BELIEVING. Not having this internal argument at all is BELIEVING. 

All our internal arguments are against believing. All your internal resistance is against believing. All our inner argument and resistance is the cause of our negativity, because there is no space to take in the good.

Let me give you and example.  This is very important. Take the case of a child. A child always receives gifts form Santa Clause. No matter who buys and keeps the gift in the bag. He receives it. He gets what he wants. Why? Because his logic and knowledge does not interfere with the existence or no existence of Santa Clause. His logic and knowledge has not developed to that extent. He believes without a question or inner argument. And it happens.

To believe we all have to become children. 

So, life goes beyond logic. Things do not happen with us because we argue, we interfere, with what is being said and we DON’T BELIEVE. But the child BELIEVES and it happens with him. This is the only difference.

This proves that belief can make the impossible, possible. The statement is the beginning of this post is true.

Our logic and knowledge based inner argument is the obstacle to every good thing that can happen in our lives. We block it with inner argument. The day it stops, we will start believing and then, things will just happen without any effort. If the inner argument stops, we all will become a child and will start believing. Things are bound to change for the better. I can bet.

To take in what is being said, to believe, space is required. Otherwise, where will we take in what is being said. That is why I always talk about creating consciousness. Consciousness is noting but spaces within. Spaces will be created when files in our memory are deleted or removed or when we are aware of the filed and they automatically deleted.

Another analogy – The knowledge that constitute your mind are like springs. No matter how much you press them, they are always ready to come back to their original form and occupy space. You must have experienced, no matter how much you try not to think, the thoughts always comes. You just cannot avoid thinking and arguing. For some time, if you force another thought or doing another thing, you get mentally strained or you are not able to concentrate. Not able to concentrate means, that the springs have come back to the original size and shape.

In the mind of the child, there are no springs (Thoughts or knowledge). It is empty. There is no one to argue or oppose. Anything new it goes inside without opposition or without resistance or argument. Whatever is said, he believes, and it happens.

For us, when someone tells us something, that goes beyond logic, the springs the pressed, but the next moment, the spring come back to shape. The inner argument is nothing but the spring trying to come back to its original shape. You must have experienced, that it is very difficult sometimes, to get something new in our minds. This difficulty is because of the existing springs opposing the new thought from entering. This existing springs (thoughts) are the inner resistance, the argument. This inner argument (existing springs) makes us NOT TO BELIEVE. 

The spaces are available with all of us, but they are occupied with strong springs. To believe, only one thing is required – That is space or what is known as consciousness.

There are two options available with you to access the space. 

1. You Either destroy the springs (Your mind, your knowledge) completely  – This is the path of Action OR

2. You find spaces beyond the springs (Thoughts, knowledge, mind) and let the springs (Thoughts, knowledge, mind) do whatever they want. Do not strain them, let the springs be, because there is unlimited space available to all of us – This is the path of meditation.

Please let me know what you comments are. If  can be of any help to you.

Two Ways to Create Conciousness

The only objective of humans is to create consciousness. This should be understood. Consciousness is the Goal. Developing Consciousness is aligning oneself with the supreme intelligence. Developing Consciousness is Creativity. Developing Consciousness is Innovation. Consciousness is allowing creation to act through you.
 
You do not have to make an objective to create something new or to innovate. You just have to align yourself with Creation. You have to align yourself with existence. You have to make space for the supreme intelligence to occupy that space and work. For that you have to delete some files from your memory and make space for the intelligence, the only intelligence, to work. Then you will be governed by the supreme intelligence and in that space, everything is put right. Everything is restored to its original form. The anomalies are there because we have started using our so called intelligence. 

When space is created, Creation works through and you are just an agent.

There are two ways to Create consciousness or Create Spaces within. There may be more, but I will elaborate on only these two.

1.  Inwardly Directed (In the Bhagwad Gita, Lord Krishna has referred to it as Antarmukhi, Inwardly directed or facing inwards). This is the way of Gautama Buddha, this is the way of Meditation.

2. Outwardly Directed (In the Bhagwad Gita, Lord Krishna has referred to it as Bahirmukhi, outwardly directed or facing outwards). This is the way of Krishna, this is the way of Action. This way to create consciousness was told to Arjuna by Lord Krishna, just before the famous battle of Mahabharata, when Arjuna was reluctant to fight. 

Both the routes are different but they help you achieve the same – they create spaces within for the Supreme Intelligence work.

And I will repeat, in this space, the unimaginable can happen. Remember This!

Suffering Deters Creation

We are so much involved in our suffering that we do not create. Our suffering has taken us away from the creative intelligence. It is a vicious cycle. The more we suffer, the more we are involved in our suffering. And the more we are involved in our suffering, the more we go away from creation.


Suffering leads to our involvement with more suffering and everyday it takes us away from the creative intelligence. How can we be with the creative intelligence, we are so involved with suffering. We do no longer create. We have to go to the roots of suffering and eradicate it completely so that we go closer to the creative intelligence, the only one intelligence. 

The moment we remove suffering, we start creating. There is no effort required. It is automatic. The the creative intelligence starts creating through you.

There is one goal for Humans. It is to create Consciousness. Expand it so that it covers the whole universe or rather I should say, covers millions of universes. There is no other goal. Believe me there is no other goal. Remember this.
 
All confusions is because of this one confusion – whether to create consciousness or not create consciousness. We are afraid, we are skeptical because we do not know what will happen if we enter that space. This is what keeps us in confusion, not only in this life, but life after life. All other confusions, fear, dilemma are branches of this one confusion – Whether to Create or not to create consciousness. This confusion is the confusion of humanity. 
 
I have written in my previous posts that this consciousness is the supreme intelligence. It is Creation. It is existence. This is the only intelligence that runs everything in this world, starting from the working of microscopic cells in your body to supernovas million of light years away.  It is the same intelligence. This intelligence is what you call is GOD. This intelligence exists in your consciousness.
 
The intelligence is was there, is there and will be there, whether humans are there or not. This intelligence is the only “Right” and all others are wrong. We have separated ourselves from this intelligence. We have developed our own selves. This separated piece, that we called “our own intelligence” is our ego. It does not allow the supreme intelligence to function. This “our own intelligence” has become a cause of our misery. It has given rise to desires, dreams and Goals. We have forgotten he only goal, because we have separated ourselves and created our own goals. This separates us because we think that we are all and there is nothing else.
 
But Nature is not. See the tree, see the clouds, see the birds, the animals, the forests. Are they in trouble? No. Humans have put them in so much trouble. We kill animals, cut trees for our selfish desires. We destroy nature. This is a clear proof that we have separated ourselves from that supreme intelligence. 
 
God or the supreme intelligence does not want you to be sick. It does not want you to suffer. But we do suffer. Both mentally and physically. Go to the hospitals and see the condition there. Go to a mental asylum an see how sad it is. We are all fighting, competing with each other. We are always in a mood to punish each other. We are happy when we exploit another. 

This consciousness is emptiness. It is no-thing-ness. How can it create so much trouble.

It does not want you to fight court battles
It does not want you to have fatal diseases
It does not want you to breakup with your girlfriend
It does not want you to suffer divorce
It does not want you to have a bad relationship with anyone
It does not want you to meet with an accident
It does not want to become handicapped
It does not want you to loose your job

How can it? It is No-thing. No thoughts, no desires, no goals, no objectives. How can it do all these things. It is just it is. It is the “is-ness”.

The moment you have access, all these above mention things will not happen. They will be restored to the original form.

You start healing. There is more and more space. The moment these things do not happen, you become one with the creative intelligence, the only intelligence, and there will open up endless possibilities. Things will start getting restored to what they are supposed to be.

These things occurred because we have created our own intelligence, separated from the supreme intelligence.
 
I can assure you that if you start creating awareness, if you start creating space, things will change. The supreme intelligence will fill up that space you have created and your life will be aligned with the intelligence, the only intelligence. Remember there is no other intelligence. Our suffering exists because we have created our own intelligence. All that is created is all artificial and thus we have separated from the supreme intelligence.
 
And in that space so created, Nothing can go wrong. Because all wrong are of humans, all suffering are of humans. We make each other suffer more than anything else. When that space is created everything in your life will be aligned with the supreme and it will be GOD’s will.
 
We don’t know what the supreme Intelligence will create in the space created. Don’t bother to know. Let it work. Give it space to work. You can only give it an opportunity by creating spaces within.
 
Remember that your only goal is to create consciousness. And then everything takes care of itself.